Really, tell me.. What’s life all about? Why all the fuss? You were born, you live, and you’d die in the end. I could just imagine God saying (I happen to believe in God): ‘Here, I give you Life, go do something with it, but remember that it’s mine, I could take it whenever I want’. He sounds mean, doesn’t He? Well, what do you expect.. He’s God. He owns everything. It’s like.. a contract. You’re living in something that you know you’ll lose one day. And to make matters worse (or more interesting?).. you don’t know when that ‘one day’ is. How crazy is that? Oh you know what, I’ll tell you something else.. Once, I was so high, I was traveling into my own mind, got thrown from one ‘reality’ to another, and I thought that I found out about the Universal Secret. You know, about everything in life. Unbelievable, right? And at that ‘floating’ state -my mind was fucking messing with me- I suddenly realized that.. God was me. I WAS God. No, wait. Everyone is a God to themselves. The rest of the world exists because you exist. If you were never born, you’d never know, maybe the whole universe won’t work the way it is right now. You can imagine how fucked up I was that night, right?
Shit, I’m going crazy with this whole ‘Life concept’ again. I just got the news that my uncle just died. I always get this way everytime.. *Sigh..*
(Don’t mind me, I’m just being too fucking sentimental and fussy. And you know what.. I really don’t need answer to all of that ‘Life questions’. No one does. I just LIVE, no questions asked.)
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June 1, 2009 at 4:22 am
You are dead on…we are god. (Not the guy in the white robe…long beard…sitting on a throne…)
Check this out. I sent my wife an email. She is very, very sick with cancer…and was struggling with all of it. Our response is very similar.
Sorry about your uncle. No need to apologize for being sentimental and fussy. Why we feel a need to be cool all the time is beyond me.
Oh…here’s the link: http://thirty2nds.wordpress.com/2009/05/24/a-letter-and-god/
Best,
AK