Yesterday night I couldn’t sleep so bad, no matter how hard I tried. So, after too many desperate attempts, I sat down in front of my laptop to find some things to do, and I spotted one of my friend went online on ym. He just got a girlfriend, and I haven’t had the chance to chat with him for quite some time. So I decided to say hi, and there I was, at 4 in the morning, throwing questions at him. When I first knew him, he had just gotten out of a relationship, badly wounded. He then went skeptical about girls, more, he loathed them. So when I first heard that he got a girlfriend, I wanted to know more. :) After 2-’brb’s and a couple of scribbles using ‘Doodle’ later, it turned out that he was in love. I was happy for him, sincerely, but I also said some pretty nasty things, only because I didn’t want him to be back in the same shit hole he was in. And to my astonishment, his respond to all my skepticism was: “Do you know that you frightened me with your words? If I were to get hurt, I’ll get hurt. But in the meantime, just let me be happy and enjoy whatever that is I have now”. On that exact moment I knew.. he was right. I paused. Then I couldn’t help but smile and said to him: “:) I know. I’m sorry. I’m happy for you.”So I’m thinking, if someone had hurt him so much before, and he could get out alive and be an optimist again, then why can’t I?
(This waiting thing is probably nothing. Like I said, I whine too much. I’m just gonna enjoy my desperation while you’re gone :) so that when you’re back, things would be so sweet they couldn’t get any sweeter.)
